The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

Monday, August 27, 2007

I am in so much pain today...but even the closest people around me couldn't tell...
Am I hiding it well?
or are they just seeing right through it?

want to be heard, not to be nag at
want to be console, not to be condemned
want to be loved, not to be sidelined

What I want...you can't give it to me

yet I still stuck by you, living each and every day of my priceless life with you...
cause I know you love me...but you don't know how to show it anymore
I feel lonely,
I feel small


Does it cost a lot to be loved?
A great hindrance to space




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Trust

Can we really trust anyone these days? Although they are the closest to us such as our parents, siblings, friends, or "soul mates"...


This is how I grew up. Learning to trust is a subject we will never overcome because there will always be doubts within us. What more in this land where I spill my blood on...trust has become a metaphor rather than it is concrete. Like charity, those beggars around the roadside or the night market we always see...are they really blind? in diificulties? or are they in a scam just to collect money for a syndicate? Well, I would like my charity Ringgit to go directly to whom I donate or give to, not to be fed to other people who are capable. I don't run a charity in my life, I give whenever I want. But speaking about charity, this is one of the rarest case in my life and hell it's been forbid by parents.

I was left home by my parents, so I had to take the bus out of Kota Kemuning. Knowing the bus service in my area, I waited like a jackass by the road.....*Well...waiting has become a norm for me because Malaysians^no matter who they are^ are really bad with their punctuality(no offense but it is true) *. Best thing that happen was that a guy in a Kancil stopped and wanted to give me a ride to where I want to go....a total stranger...as his face didn't pass my photographic memory. I was desperate, therefore I got in and followed him...Of course I did question him a little before I got on. He said he was on his way to KL and Subang Jaya is just on the way. Well, I was a little scared and nervous...but I had thoughts that was felt very useless today and didn't mean anything to the world. okok...back to the trip, we talked alot about the safety in Malayisa...since his kindness was very surprising...*we always have motive*...but his....was just RM 5. I trusted this guy....he was a Malay guy....and we got along quite well with our conversation...keke....

There is still a small part in this land that has real good qualities among the citizen. True and genuine...not all are the asshole...But Hell it was a very big risk that I got in his car*Don't try this people!!!*

So where do you put your trust? Is it real charity or there's one hell motive behind it?
This is the place I grew up...and today I discover another part of it....



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Freedom of Speech

Thursday, August 23, 2007

From where I've grown up..throughout my childhood and my teen days....The education has made some of us confuse, scared, and unliberalized. Till someone comes along and mock the National Anthem. What happen happened, and there's no use of covering it up and pretend it didn't happen. We should approach this problem well, make it a lesson to others, especially the young ones. This is not the time to be childish, not the time to be immature where we become all sensitive. Yes, what that guy did was wrong...it might the facts but he shouldn't put it in that way. Mocking the National Anthem is the last thing any local citizen will do to his or her own country.

My generation...and the generation before me, my parents...have all grown up in a democratic country. Yet..I always see myself not being in that position entirely. Lets just start at home....parents are hell autocratic with me. Well, where did they get that from?

Teens who smoke, get high on drugs and have multiple sex partners....why are they like that? In secondary school life, I often come across these kind of essay where we must find the factors that caused it and steps to over come it. Most common factors would be peer pressure and lack parents attention.

ok...back to where parents get their autocratic-ness.
Well...they would like to believe in us teens but they worry alot about what their peers might say like.."aiyo...u let your child go lidat wan ar? aiyo.." or "Wah Mr. X's son is a playboy,he doesn't know how to teach his son"

Therefore...it applies...influence and peer pressure...don't you dare say it depends on situation...it has the same application

Besides that...as my dad grew up in school...he told me...it's always the teacher who is right...although they might be wrong..they are always right. We shouldn't question them...That mentality has spread down to us teens even some of us are not realizing it. Sometimes we have a different opinion, that's all...why you all old people have to be so sensitive and defensive over us? Why are we always seen as rebels and people who likes to fight?

Passion guided and Industry driven....among the famous tag line from my institution where we are encourage to think out of the box, be creative and be different. But yet some just can't handle the fact some of us are fast learners, some want to help....There's only a fraction that is willing to challenge us back...but others just think of us as rebels and rude students. IRONIC!!!

This is only the small picture...

THINK BIGGER...


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Through

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

assignments stress lovelife soccer Premier League Joel Thierry Henry Stephorny over the edge Mr. Vijay Red Alert 2 Manchester United SUCKS Dishwalla futsal bouncing castle left leg talk at the glass Vitagen I LOVE YOU itch Rush Hour 3 scared lonely Fifa 07 terrified Collide blunt bloggermania bored ugly got an eye for you nervous 11 month soon in debt Klangy patty improved hyped laptop missing someone Command & Conquer 3 friends Ken Counterstrike help Boss Simpsons Ernest don't go broke



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At This Point

Sunday, August 19, 2007

...of life...=p

its going normal as usual..just that assignment are piling up...

Here's my life...moving......

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*my RM 20 McDonald gift certificate from Fu-yoh===just spend Rm80 within a time frame and spin the wheel*
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*after a 3hour session in the cyber cafe.... postmortem SEGi style....CENDOL!!! *
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*My Human Resource and Business Management lecturer, can't believe it he woke me up from my deep sleep 2 days running...not in class of course!!!....keke*

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Matching shoes with my baby!!...un-coincident-al okay people...haha....FYI is a futsal shoe in case some stupid people don't know what it is.....Gosh!!!



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The Feeling of Charity

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Well..I've have that sudden vision of having a big heart to give back to the world...I've been checking out UNICEF but I still feel lost about it...So, let's start small....

My old tuition buddy has got herself into a big project....seems fun!!
*I don't get this in my institution...so let me share this with you guys*

Project Phunk!!!
-by Semester four Communication students of TCPJ

what the phunk is going on there?
well this coming Monday they will have another Garage sale!!...man I hardly been to that....

they have lots of stuffs...ranging from:




cute teddy bears that cost RM10..I guess
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AND
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cute gal to sell the cute bear...haha
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*pictures from their last garage sale...damn the happening right....Taylors ma...*
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For more pictures..do visit their blog
*picture of my friend is not in there...Don't bother asknig me about it*

So to my friends...especially the guys....nothing to do on aMonday noon? Go there...Meet a chick...but most importantly...make sure your contributions is from the HEART!!!...

pictures are from project-phunk.blogspot.com

All the best Phunk-ies...

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David Beckham

Friday, August 17, 2007

The first goal that I could every remember that Becks scored is from half field with a wonderful sharp lob into d goal....beating the dreaming keeper. That was back in 1997 if I was not mistaken, when he got into the starting line-up for Manchester United. Wearing the No. 7 jersey where Eric Cantona left off, Beckham was Manchester United's backbone....on field and off field...He provided the best crosses and free kicks on field, which fits very well with Man Utd. game and he made Man Utd. one of the richest soccer club in the world just by the sale of his jersey. But around 2002, STUPID RETARD Alex Ferguson lost his most valuable asset because he had issues with him...What a stupid manager, he kicks out the players he have issues with....well...Newsflash stupid old man...you kicked a boot to his eye-brows...just because of a lost...worst than a Singaporean man....While offloading Beckham with a heavy big transfer fee, he thought he could sign Ronaldinho from PSG....Newsflash again old man....south American don't shine in Man Utd...it ain't their style. Look at Forlan, Veron and Heinze...all shine outside of Man Utd...Back to the story....Poor Becks..but he was on his way to meet his friends in Real Madrid...being a galactico.

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Soon later he was reunited with Ruud van Nistelrooy since Alex had issues with him too...GOSH!!! Though he had difficulties fitting in play, with he's coach not letting him play at certain point, Beckham found it tough there when he had to fight for his place with Jose Antonio Reyes and a taking free kicks since Roberto Carlos was a regular. But as usual he wasn't only the key man on pitch, his tour across Asia with Real Madrid sold hundred of thousands of Real Madrid jerseys, with his name on it....even China have the name and number in Mandarin.

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Years past and this guy here has past his 30's...and still he got an even better offer in the United States of America. Guess America wants to build a solid foundation for their future soccer stars by bringing in one of the most influential player on the field....David Beckham....Galaxy signed him from Real Madrid and now he's settling in the American lifestyle. Everyone in America came to watch this man, even Governor
Arnold Schwarzenegger....haha....Still nursing an ankle injury, he still managed to open his goal account at Galaxy...by scoring a trademark free kick with style. Simply superior by Beckham!!!


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*images are from soccernet.com*

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Barclay's Premier League Starts...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Shocking draw for Man Utd.
Tough times for Arsenal, Chelsea and Liverpool.
Bad lost for high rated Spurs.


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*Overjoyed Gerrard scoring a nice free kick to regain the lead*


There we go as the first week begins...
Small minion teams are drilling hard on the big four
Newcastle showing class over Bolton
Arsenal coming back from a goal down
Liverpool and Chelsea found the net when they needed it
Man Utd. didn't take advantage over the 10 men..

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*Rooney breaking his toe...AGAIN!!!...I wonder what Nike sees in him*


My opinion on the current status of EPL...
Spurs is highly overrated
South American will still not do well in Man Utd.
Newcastle can sting bad
Arsenal youngsters are hell greedy
Reading is average-ly good!!!

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*He's just weird I guess.....*

Screw Spurs!!my guess of the top5 will be:

Chelsea
Liverpool
Man Utd
Arsenal
Newcastle

*pictures are from soccernet.com Click the link on my sidebar to go there for live score and sports news*



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Life...dated 08/08/07

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

First of all....HAPPY 19TH BURFDAY BAN LENG!!!...keke....

hmmm...life? is...ok...la.... keke

keke...my pet sister's birthday is coming and I'm gonna celebrate it with her for 3 years running!!! woo hoo....but I wonder what to get you Faye...=P
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Finally finally I got my Command & Conquer Novel...read it all in 6 days....storyline was...honestly...dull....But I wish they make a movie out of it...after the expansion for Tiberium Wars is released..woo hoo!!!!







Rojak, Cendol and Durian




After morning breakfast with Boon....stone in College com lab for awhile...finally we decided to go cycer cafe to play!!!...yes la Joel you Rock.....whatever...Ken you suck in Red Alert!!!booo....but he's good at something else.....*scroll down*

after gaming? makan la....apa lagi.....so...we drop by at the Rojak man at we ate cedol pulut and 3 of us shared a rojak *Boon when jalan-jalan with his friends*
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Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucketemmmm syok!!! damn...I pulak jadi photograher...this post don't have my picture...='(

below: Greedy Joel makan both at 1 time....ish!!!
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Round 2...DURIAN!!!!


woo hoo...nice right!!!???!?!??!?!?!?!?
the isi damn the nice...thanks to the person below...
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*see see........seed is small...alot of flash!!!*
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there...Mr. Ken Loong...trademark face betul la him....enjoy enjoy like jakun....all these pictures were taken by me till our ex lecturer Ms. Hwong saw us as she passed by the corner....haha...look at me like I'm some ill patient.aihz....but to end the day...it was NICE!!!....but hurt-fully expensive..
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It's about time... =D

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

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wokayz....this was a major surprise...=D though I might be slow blogging this but yeah...this should be cool though the snapshots doesn't show the best graphics quality.I've just finish downloading the game yesterday and yet to install it to my gaming computer...Apparently is an add-on to Generals: Zero Hour... Maybe I shall play it by tonight....though assignment season is burning through my sanity and pinching my focus...heh heh heh....riiiiiiiiite!!! will update you readers soon about this!!!



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Finally finally finally... an expansion I guess? check the site the Command and Conquer site!!! It ended with the flee of Scrin and NOD's lost for GDI, Kane's plan going well on engaging further technology on Tiberium with Scrin, and the failure to inavde Earth for Scrin...........So how does the story continue for all of this 3 factions? curious curious....*feeling hyper!!!* hmm better hope the units are nice to command...especially infantry!!! woo hooo.....




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