FEATURE ENTRY $BONUS$ *USB* *Izzaty*

Well since it's my birthday month...I guess having to person who are special this month is nothing wrong right?haha....Ya I know that the feature entry came in late this month but...its still November now right...another 3hours though to December...haha

First of all I shall start with Mr. Uthaya Sankar SB.
The one
The only
...LAN lecturer in our college who ended his service today which is 30th November 2006 with reason that are quite forbidden to public...haha


(The man himself)


He's a man with capability, responsibility, curiosity and with limited left hand ability...haha...chill k sir...don't ambil hati kayz when you read this. What he has done for me? Well, for starters he intro himself to Syah at first because he was intrigued with his shirt...then only we get to know each other. During the college's Indian Cultural Day, he bought me a Jipah which costs a lot. I mean...which lecturer ever buys their student gifts?
He even loaned me Rm 300 with no questions asked...cool huh..
Because of this man, I am where I stand in college today...on top of the food chain...haha (I know alot of people in college because of him...and attitude has changed...along with my England...modified a little already...haha)
Though we had arguments because both of us had some screwed up attitude but life can be boring without him (no one to bully...haha)
His LAN class is moderately ok, enjoyable though..haha
Too bad he's leaving because of avoidable reasons but well, things changes as time passes. All the BEST USB...haha.



Next will be Izzat Izhar a.k.a Izzaty a.k.a Semm's gay partner
I know this mordern Malay dude because of Andy around March...Then later in the second semester we got along as he joined Semm, Syah and I. Slowly we got closer as he smokes also...ish.....haha
He's nice, friendly, approachable, lazy, funny, blur, handsome and lots the many more...haha
Most importantly is that he's the first friend that saw my relationship bloom and he made some stuffs possible like fetching me to Syah's Raya open house...thanks bro, I owe you one (out of the many...keke)
Now we're in different class but he still longs for Semm when he wants to smoke...haha. By the way..he's 18 also..just like me but of course elder than me.

(he's the guy on the left with the long hair...)

When It's Least Expected..It Pays off!!!

After the whole month with mixture of sunshine and rain....It just had to get worst early this morning as my sleeping hours were filled with sadness and fear. As my mom woke me up when I arrived opposite college, I felt so down...fearing to see what lies ahead as the dream wasn't pleasant at all.

So...after a few minutes wasted to cross the road, I reached in front of college but I took a good look around before walking into the compound...then I saw this indian guy selling putu mayam (can tell by the box behind his motorcycle). To brighten myself, I thought of buying some for you because you like it. But I was an inconsiderate bastard as I ask the guy what I wanted...I was just so focused on getting it for you that I overlooked that the guy was injured. He fell off his motor somewhere and had wound at his finger and both his arms. His injuries were not only wound but internal injuries too as he can't lift his right arm. I was standing there..still waiting for him to serve (damn asshole right???aihz...I hate myself for that) but then I just walk into college trying to forget the idea that I want to buy putu mayam for you. But as I stepped in college, the guilt in me built so fast that I had stomach ache (So, I went and pass first). But honestly I was trying to forget about that person but it just got stuck...Afraid of being embarrassed that he might already leave when I bring the first aid kit, I hesitated so much.

But Tereessa was there to pest me that I should help him (*he was still sitting and resting at the bus stop*). So I did, dragging her along to the 5th floor to get the kit but we only found out that the room that has the kit is still lock. So, Michelle asked me to try out the student services at Ground floor...I did but they didn't have it. The student service said there's one on the 8th floor...blindly we followed her words and found out there was no one to help us (that level is more for part-time students)

Finally I got smart and remembered that the 4th floor was the nursing floor, definitely there's a kit and Ms. Lai to assist us. So we managed to only get cotton and yellow solution for the guy (*he was STILL at the bus stop this time...kesian la*). Well, I didn't exactly do anything to deserve the credit as Tereessa is the one who applied the medicine on the guy (I stood there as a dumb fellow). You came and didn't notice...but it was so nice to see you that moment...it lifted me.

After helping what we can...I felt so good and I was ready to face my day now...haha. Pity Tereessa hand was yellow because of the medicine. I went back and return the meds and got a small compliment...too bad la Tereessa, you didn't follow...but I'll state it here, you deserve it kayz

I had a slow noon during lunch which got my worries on my shoulders again but it wasn't hard on me as you were there with me. But the dreams still taunts me from time to time today...made me live in horrid fear for hours. Later... I went for James Bond but it was crap!!! censored!?!?!?! wasted my money only..though it was a long movie.

Before the movie by the way, saying goodbye to you was so hard....guess you know why as how I've stated above. On the other hand... Mr. S was so cool, he lifted my Costing sorrows man!!!! Man I wish for a million of him. I'll also meet Mr. W tomorrow for my Fundamental of Management paper focus topic.


I'm still sitting at the comupter lab now*with mixed emotions of my upcoming 2weeks*...I just chatted with Happy Allie today...haha, take care gal aights. I hope I can shirt into gear and really start on work...my emotions aren't my moving oil for me. I just helped someone with the college com..man..helping people relieves me so much about life. It's my life passion!!! but loving people..especially you, completes me.

I've Made Up My Mind

Well, November is really a disaster...put aside all the good things but it's not enough to make the sun shine on me this month. It's been awhile I blogged and let me say....I've made up my mind, I need to be taken away. I don't care whoever comes, DEATH?ANGEL? whoever....just take me away from this ache that I have.

It's like a paper cut where it doesn't look bad but it hurts so bad. Ya...it's true that this blog has become a depression blog, I won't deny that damn true facts about it. Everything I do is wrong, it doesn't please anyone...it's like I'm hurting them in one freaking way or another.

And those who just have to make it worst for me...thanks millions people, I owe one...BIG TIME. I can't blame them though..its not taught in kindergarten,elementary or high school. I'll remain my silence and keep this excruciating hemorrhage to myself. But when I need some one to talk to me and comfort me...it just doesn't happen...I've been offering so much sometimes and I didn't get anything in return. Serves the fact that I'm an asshole thats why I'm excluded from the "I should be good to this person" list. I'm still searching for someone who listen to my crap, that's why knowing new people everyday is such an important thing. People who I have, friends.....they start to fail...one by one, its like a damn plague moving across my life's perimeter. Hate it when it happens to me...I can't trust anyone anymore...When I really need to turn to them, they just fail miserably.

I'm 18 this month and guess what...I'm not having the time of my life! How I calm myself down this whole month? Is that I help people, offer myself to them whether I can lighten their burden anyhow...it's my dream achievement in life and I love doing it. Even giving donation to people makes me happy (don't care even if they turn out to be scam beggars)

Some things are should be left UNSPOKEN...that's so important everywhere...I've been hit with so many things that I needn't to know. Well, guess it's karma...And its the WORST when you get in right in the face....it happens so fast that you won't know what hit you. Getting that recently breaks me inside out, seriously...its traumatic, disturbing, unspeakable.

I've not been asking alot like a Christmas list, but all I want is things to go easy on me...and hope that people who are close to me...that really loves me...knows what I've been going through.

Broken shattered November- badly hurt and wounded.

I Feel Like The the Weather....*Rain & Storm*

That was what I messaged to a person when I was in a horrible moody state (31st October 2006, Tuesday, 1p.m.)

...Damn it has become a chronic tumour that eats every bit of my sanity everyday. And exactly last week...7days ago from today, I was blogging about my breakdown about the FA2 assignment, which left particles of me laying around everywhere....and 168hours later from that day...is here...now....which in between was many many bad eventful crap that I wish it didn't happen. Let aside the barring issue at the moment but I'm here sulking about my next 24 hours..I know I shyt tok no action alot...but here's the only place where I can express myself*though some are left unspoken and kept in*.

My dad just emailed me asking about my studies and giving lines that I least need at this very moment..aihz...I'm not in a tip top mood of ever replying him because of who I am right now, thus I just left him my blog address in the reply (if la he wants to know everything about his son...so...hello dad if you're reading this now). It almost made me cried in the com lab....again...for the 35383458329th time haha...Feeling so heavy...presence of friends really came into handy, although it was just a hello or the least an sms. Thanks to my china guy classmate(don't know his name), Semm, and Miss T who is now in the IT office at the moment...you guys don't know that you brighten a sad bloke's life.

Being like this sucks...but it's way far from death right? keke...sometimes I think its the wrong timing and I'm not ready. The best thing is that friends just have to disturb or give lines on the wrong day...its' not that I don't shoot back..but I feel it so deep, cuts every veins and arteries in me.*Is this a sign that I'm suicidal?...hahaha*(read too many suicide articles...like in the recent MYC magazine..keke)

Well...i'm fine ok....just disspresstion...haha what a word...I just need that little something that I ain't getting...wat...actually it's alot of things....I don't know which one now...Guess me being Vendeta will be the best for everyone...

THE GREATER THE TRUST, THE GREATER THE BETRAYAL
- Alexander Luthor

It's so true....I can't believe that line didn't fall in my life sooner. Now I'm just leaving by it...to a certain extend of course...Don't wanna be crazy...though in fact I am.....kind of...unstable...haha
Thoughts within me are so wired up...coiling to its unexpected ways that it squeeze my serenity out of me.

Miss H. still cares bout me...though it's a fraction..but that's cool...thanks!!! hope you have a brighter future after this*coughs coughs*. Sorry that I've complicated matters for you...Nice and kind hearted...though sometimes the approach is a little wrong. Miss your classes though you "curse" us to fail sometimes...=p All the best!!! =D

Pernahkah kuceritakan kepedihanku?
akan berakhir malam ini

Finally..I'm feeling better...haha....blogspot really does wonders. maybe it's also because of letting out my pee...=p
I'm out....
*location: computer lab, 3.23 p.m., alone, doing assignment,listen music[chasing cars!!!]*

Broken 21st...

Today was really slow and bumpy as I start my day as usual....by my own alone...eh wait...Joel and Tereessa were around to keep my sanity...I helped Joel with his assignments and played some stupid game with Tereessa that I became a Nursery teacher, Dog walker and Prime Minister based on my name...Though Tereessa laughed at me so much but she got the best job....PORNSTAR!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahaha....it was the bomb wei....killer!!!... Joel is a computer hacker though

It was lunch time and I didn't have my lunch till it was almost class due to the Student Council meeting. Draggy and distracted, I was yet to know that my day was about to come down crashing on me...Some things are unavoidable and I have managed it before...

But the worst part was getting a call from college saying I'm barred from exams because I'm late for classes and don't pay attention in class. I think that's the most ridiculous reason any damn Fucking lecturer can give towards a student. My attendence is full (though late once or twice) and I did my assignment (passed up on time), how can I be barred?
Even Ms. H, Ms. A, Ms. Ji,Ms. Je, Mr. S, Mr. U never barred me though I don't pay attention in class...why is this lecturer doing it? (the person's way of handling stuffs?...that's some style right there) and the best part was I wasn't barred though I was like this in the first semester with the same lecturer.

Appeal? ya....I have to do that of course or I'll die facing my narrow minded parents...I said it once, I'll say it twice...I'll say it here....what's happening between the lecturer and I causes this issue to arise...not anyone...NOT YOU. It started when class began on the 9th Oct...It just happen..that's all I can say and I still don't know what's the actual cause. I know it's partly me but I don't know what's that individual's perception. My situation might have affected the people around me...like my class buddy..I'm still yet to know about the other. Remember...it's not you..it's me....O yes!!! I used that line....haha finally!!! keke... funny-nya.

I shared the same lift with Ms. Janice just now...and said hi....haha...it's been so long since we communicated...=p *her class was honestly dreadful*

If I ache....I ache for you...
cadre qui câline un portrait - holding you everyday of your life.

Hanging By A Moment Here With You

This dreadful moment in my life isn't over...
Another 12 more hours and the verdict will out about my future this semester
But I'm not as down as yesterday,
Because this hard feelings in me have swayed,
To a place where it's dumped forever,
I sit here in this lab of computers,
Waiting for the moment...
Where I'm hanging by a moment here with you

You really took so much away,
From the day I know you till today,
You never fail to brighten my darken days,
Here without you I'm waiting,
To see a glimpse of your glitter eyes,
That no money can buy,
A touch of your delicate hands,
So fine as the beach's sand,
And mostly...
You...
A friend,
A saviour,
A person I can lean on
And keep my life going on and on

I'm still petrified of the moments ahead,
Would life just give me a summer break,
So I can runaway...
So far away...
To you I will say,
That no one can derail me,
Derail me from away from you,
Cause you are here,
Where I harbor you deeply,
In this heart of mine,
Whom no stranger can find


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What I Found In This Town, I'm Heading For A Breakdown

so crushed,
so broken,
so shattered...

in this life in this town where I breakdown falling down to my knees begging for a saviour to take me away. I literally have given up hope, perished in my own mistakes with a knife spearing out of ill-feared heart.

I wish I' stronger...but I guess have to hold back all this to get it right. I shan't burden you with my miseries that cuts my wrist..causing me to bleed out all my confidence and strength.

Stranded in the blistering cold, like children in a building I can't stand steady, shall break this habit of being so down...drowning deeper every second I'm away from you.


At least you're around...cheering me up in a way I don't realise myself
someone who just hears...someone who I hear to too.
Though not on the same boat though the same journey but we still guide each other in a way that no words define.*sounds so compli but actually nothing wan...hahaha....*

There are some I just can't stand being near with: imbecilic no matter what their age...and just playing them flying around me...
Can't fend off these people as they affect me in 1 way or another if I do...
It sickens me, putting me off and block the sunshine of my day.

I'm still stuck with my Fucked up assignment which is due this Thursday...the Fucking lecturer just had to make it sound so hard...
Oya...for those who read my blog....my blog....my blog....remember that line...it's my Fucking blog and I would like to write whatever shit I want and you can't stop me!!! To approach me giving me those screwed up look and ask hanging questions as though I know what the Fuck you're asking.

I' still bleeding here...it's yet to stop and I have no one to seek attention from....only some IT students looking in from inside...This is me... I don't know how can you ever accept me in my current condition...it is so dark here. I wonder if you can find me...

As I look down at times in life...I see you picking my chin up again...holding my hand to stop this massive hemorrhage. If my hand is left by you...I wonder who else can stop it...it's really hard to see you g everyday..letting go of your comforting hands takes me out of my comfort zone...leaving me vulnerable to everything around me.




I'm stil so blur now... I just saw an advert on MSN saying "You snooze you lose"
damn...it's a very strong signal to me...It's like it's been slapped at my face straight!!!


You just came...taking so much away...I know I looked cold but your warmth kept my heart beating...=D feel that I'm breathing again! hope you really really know how much you mean to me.

Guess I shall stop. I actually typed more here rather than typing in my assignments!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Regardless...

Man...I don't even have the appetite to eat right now. This semester still really sucks...education wise!!!
I've been really sharing it now...many times, many people...and yet...I'm still sulking over the same damn issue day after day. No one understands what I'm going through...NO ONE!!! though they claim they do but their just listeners not the ones who comforts me. It's really a mistake getting to close...now it's haunting all over me...even killing my blogging mood for so long.

I try to stay strong but I'm keep shattering myself every time I think of it...leaving me in a state of sour depression. Oya...speaking of blogging, I would like to thank my friends who gave me presents!!! keke....to dear Allie Mun and Joel Stephen...thanks alot...though it came late but still it made me so happy...1 donut and 2gear driving lessons...keke...so cool..haha.

Other than that...life has been fun in a certain way...to balance things off. Friends circle didn't really grow though but it strengthen alot.

like a rose that blossom in beauty...it's really been the finest in life. I really experienced so much where I learned the unlearned. Honestly, it has been bumpy throughout the whole journey so far but it's worth those cuts and bruises that eventually heal when love fills the air...

Guess I'll stop here for now...need to get back to my dreadful assignment life...Allie, if you're reading this...YES I'm as tension as you...maybe more k...

Ms. L .... cadre qui câline un portrait...you know where my heart belongs.

Sudah Berakhir Pencarian Hidupku....

Perempuanku

biarkan aku di sini untukmu
aku hanya ingin menghibur malam ini
malam yg pasti menyenangkan untukmu
dan tentu untukku

biarkan di sini aku bernyanyi
hanya untukku dan untuk menghibur kamu
dan aku yakin senyummu tulus dan jujur
hanya untukku


perempuanku engkau cintaku
tak mungkin bisa bila aku jauh darimu
bisa bila ku pasti sedih
ku cinta engkau
cinta pada perempuanku

semakin lama semakin ku tahu
maksud hati tak hanya mencintaimu
ku ingin habiskan hidupku
hanya untukmu

perempuanku engkau cintaku
tak mungkin bisa bila aku jauh darimu
bisa bila ku pasti sedih
ku cinta engkau
cinta pada perempuanku

ku cinta engkau perempuanku
perempuanku


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Hard Week For a Soft Heart....

The week just started and the word "assignments" are always ringing in my ear. I'm Fucking fed up about all those and the lecturer is just one piece of shit...maybe lower than shit. You get what I mean...Adding some other worries I have...my own space, for my own life and my own feelings.

I feel like breaking the walls, throwing everything in front of me...my sarcasm was high, my heart beats faster, tears start flowing and I'm just broke....literally................................................................
I've no where to turn....as I'm facing south now.

I have a life where I'm boxed up in my own world...
I feel so fragile...more than you can ever think...My WHOLE life...I've been shattered so many times and people don't realize it. I gather my pieces, fix them back...just to let it be shattered again...

I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

Like children in a building I can't stand steady

Fixing myself now with overdose of Numb/encore and Petrified.....heals me...
As I hear this comforting heavy tones...I feel that I'm alone...here....that the world is against me...hitting me in ways I can't never imagine....better stop...thinkin....byez...

Satu Hari, Hari Raya...

Finally I spend a night out with friends....though we didn't go clubbing but Izzat,Kayal, Steph and I went over to Syah's house for some feast!!!

But earlier in the day first of all, I spend my morning playing futsal with old friends...man I sucked so badly....even had a cramp during the game and my friends thought I was play acting...aiyoyo!!! Scored ONE goal only and ole a few (lucky I still have that skill bonded in me)...good enough for a day. But after the game, I strated to limp around since my right calf was injured after d cramp....

Back to the evening that I enjoyed...or should I say OVER-enjoyed!!!
The journey is the best as Izzat drove so pussily wild. It's so nice of you to pick me up and send me home...thanks bro...will spend you makan soon ya.
He picked me up around 6.40 and we reach around 7 something...haha...it was raining heavily and jammed all over. Not to mention the water that Izzat had to ran over.

Food was great!!! Though still no rendang but the sambal kacang, lemang, laksa and "dates juice" were nice! Even the kuih and chips were nice....the night out is just so nice!!!!! Today I really feel 18...wahaha...like small boy only right?

After that, we went outside and played crackers...haha, Syah with his tricks...so crazy...the gals were running into the house....especially the Prom Queen...ngek ngek ngek...
Then soon after the Prom Queen left...Izzat, Kayal and I left for home too....Man, Izzat is one very the forgetful person...

Keke....It's a perfect night out for someone like me....and some people.... =p =D keke...

Love it!!!! oya...one more thing...songs on the radio really ROCK!!!!! for today only la....haha

Music Video:

Music Video:

TGI Fridays...

Though When There's Class In The Morning...OMG It's Friday...


Hate that word?
ya...but live with it though...haha...still happy...smiling so happily...so joyful, ecstatic, cloud 9 plus 9!!!

haha...it's such a great day!!!Friday,Lots of it...flying in the air...
Slept in the cinema for the first time....haha. Covenant is just a normal movie but the sound system made it cool...

By the way...I wanna make a hello list on people I saw in Pyramid today...

Suet Yen (first to see)
Andrea (long time no see)
Ban Leng (cis...)
Ken (haha)
Judith (so cantik d ar you...)
Yap (ama....kadavale)
Patrica (didn't see me)
Darrick (didn't see me)

It's so fun...thought it was far enough to run from common friends...so the wrong wei but I got to meet old friends, that's so cool!!!


(love this soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!)

Some things just went bad...it just cost so much if you really want it good....
Thought it was ok...over but just 5 minutes ago...it rose again.
It worries, I know..please don't
It's okay, far from death...
I'm alive



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Sounds So Sacred, Feel So Magnified

It's Thursday....the day I hate most when it comes to studies...aihz....
but but....I always have someone to cheer me up...always...no matter how curt it is but it makes heaven on earth.

I have birthday card from a friend so far away..so unexpected....=p
thanks....

Birthday present wrapped in!!!! That's the best among all...I love it so much!!! It's been so long since I get present and cards from friends...

This year...my loved one loves me!!!! hehe... =D so the happiness!!!



(my prezzie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Really love it!!! It's so special...properly packed in...well...at least compared to some who don't know how....haha. I almost felt the tears of joy flowing down my cheeks...

It's also been awhile since I posted my own photos on my blog...The vanity is still around....always...keke



(My sis and I at Secret Recipe Kota Kemuning)


(After my haircut...)

I'm smiling again after how many emo post below this...haha....
Though I got stuffs to worry like what I saw today....crap...
Hope it doesn't dent me for tomorrow...
Feeling so happy!!!
=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

Late Posting: 26 October 2006

Since my internet was down...here's a late posting

Double Dose of Starbucks to Lighten My Day That Sulks


Yesterday was my day out to Aunt Nikki's house to meet Aunt Nikki herself, her maid (surprisingly), Yee Won and Haire (Yee Won's boyfriend). It was fun as we really catch up each others life, politics and gossips. We even took photos…though it wasn’t as plan that we go to Secret Recipe during tea time but we really had a good time sharing all of our stories.

But my day wasn't complete though Aunt Nikki gave me an ang pau for my birthday...Internet connection has been bad lately and it really fires me up to screw the customer consultant...Speaking of that...better download my notes now....haha..

Today was just....downhill....I woke up and I thought today will be nice...after 6 hours of suffering...But I was wrong....By the way, thanks Syah for the Java Chip in the morning...really needed it...it made me cheer up and not sleepy in class...keke...Smiled with a lot of people but that was "just the moment" happiness. After class, Syah went back to Johor...leaving me alone so I drifted in Summit till the noon class started. But I was starting to go nuts again so I went back to Starbucks to get a Caramel Frap....damn, it wasn't nice. Back at class....It was ok because there were jokes to keep me sane enough but I really don't know how I survived 6 hours of class with the same lecturer. It's a miracle… guess someone was with me, tapping my shoulder telling me everything is going to be fine....Well, at least Semm was in the afternoon class with me.

After class, he left for home...so I'm alone again...and since I've got nothing to do till my mum pick me up....I decided to cut my hair to let go of my emo-ness too. So I went to a saloon (FIRST TIME) and get things done....The best part of my first time was that my stylist is a mute (special is the better word though). It is hard if you can't communicate directly with the stylist but I really respect him...though he's different but he can still live his life as a normal person. I doubted him for a moment but as he started....I trust my hair with this person and that calmed me down. TRUSTING a person is so important because the TRUST that you put into that person gives that individual strength and confidence to be better.

After that, I spend time with a friend sharing stories to clear the dark clouds above my head. But, my friend was also emo…worst…..over a break up but we still share stuffs and we laughed about some lame jokes.

I blogged this shyt few hours ago in the computer lab but it was gone suddenly...So I blogged this shyt again now with more details I guess...maybe too much...=p but also minus a little...

Well, guess I'll stop here... I'm done…



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If you fall, I fall along...

18 is Just Another Number...

Well...finally I'm 18...woohoo...ya.....right......shit.....nothing special happened today...

no loved ones,
no friends,
nobody!.....
I woke up hindering everything...I'm so alone the whole morning waiting for the Dell technician to fix this com which is working healthy now....I 'm so emo that sounded the people that I had to talk to....but now...I'm still at home....I'm going to college soon for a reason that I myself don't know.

Life is so shaky since last week and I can say....I'm having my November period now....still so emo............
while waiting for the tech guy...I was blasting songs....and every song in the cd made me worst...I feel trap in my own home on my birthday...


Lloré tanto desde que ayer. ..so mucho dolor en mí. ..I se siente una lanza por el corazón. Duele. wanna ..I oye esas palabras. ..but que lo parece hasta ahora lejos...

Il mio cuore la chiama cosí molto. ..so molto che potrebbe cambiare delle cose...


I'm feeling so stress also at the moment...with the workload and speaker that just turns me off.

I'm off to college soon I guess...hope it can heal me being there with friends.


-Broken-

Nothing can really fix me now...Zelfs niet wat ik echt wil. ..what ik wil pijn mij, die ik hem niet heb. ..it doodt mij...

Ik ben een stervelinge ook...


Thanks to all my friends that message me even from 3 a.m. in the morning. Really miss you people...hope we can meet up soon...I feel much better letting it out in my blog...finally..I'm online again......I feel lighter now....But I'm still very deep down...


me prendre. ..I've a été l'attente. ..always volonté. ..though le soleil pourrait régler juste



first foreign-where matadors come from
second- where pizza come from
third- first thing that came to my mind are windmills

there I go...an update...thanks to my fans...so bloody concern wan....keke.....k...I'm off....



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