Pictures Tell The Tale of Today

My day begin as normal when I waited my mom to send my sister to school.


(7.22 a.m.)

Not long after, I was opposite college...before I crossed over, I prayed...hoping I could get through this day calmly. After that, I was at my usual area waiting for my brother Joel...haha


(8.16 a.m.)

Then my day really started when my meeting with Bruce started. But before that, KC pulled me a side to have a short chat about something "important". After my meeting, when I was on my way to Summit, I clashed with Emily where she started to scold me because I was "MIA". To make it worst, I got advices that I didn't need.

Later, I was back in college decorating the 1st floor for the night event. Man...it was so boring and I felt so empty.


(3.02 p.m.)


(4.37 p.m.)(was so bored)



(5.25 p.m.)(still bored...)

Most work was done and I got into my vain day gear mood and decided to climb up at the SEGi college exterior to take some pictures








terrible huh...haha

Soon it was seven...and the event started, lucky draw was fun but I thinking about something else throughout the whole event....I worked alot, I guess I was the last SC member to eat...and the food left were so little...sad *sob sob*


(9.01 p.m.)(gazing past...)


Finally I'm home enjoying being online blogging my hardest day this year. *happyly moody*

When I Least Suspect It...

Hmmm, I started of my day today by waking up of course but when I was in the car waiting for my sister before she go to school, my mind drifted as I look at the clear sky...



I couldn't get a short shut eye as I do every morning...so I decide to take pictures with my mom and sister.


(keke...acting macho next to sis)

(haha...my mom...)

Then I spend my usual morning talking to my brother Joel then I had off for my college magazine work with Editor Sarah. But before that, my mind was still drifting and I thought of this song...

"I know you're shining down on me from heaven"





I couldn't believe that it took me almost three hours to compile everything for Random magazine...from cover page till the end. Took a break in between though, went for a quick lunch then came back to work with a stomach ache. Sarah and I finished work around 2p.m. and we head to 5th floor to get things print.

While getting this printed, we head to Summit to watch a movie "THE WICKER MAN" led by Nicholas Cage, damn it was a SICK movie....guys....don't watch it with a gal that you're about to dump k....haha(you'll get yourself killed)
[o ya...Sarah...thanks for the Coke and the ticket k, didn't expect that...thanks lots!!! very the generous Editor]

After the movies, we bumped into Joel and Ryan, they dragged us to bowling...haha...I tell you...NO ONE was at the bowling alley. *BOREDOM*

Not long after that, Sarah and I head back to college to see our work. I compiled all the new material again and properly. Working with Kathy and gang up there is so much fun, so much jokes. Love the environment there and hope they won't shift off when the new Damansara campus opens.

Water Always Finds it's Own LeVeL

Finally everything subsides and I feel rather better today. That includes the 2-0 win that was achieved by Arsenal against Porto earlier this morning.

Well, someone has been catching up on my blog lately and throwing back lines at my face. Aihz...
But it's ok because it's a sunny day from now.

Oya....now I remember what I really want to blog today. It's so funny...Ms Shyamala scared the abra kedabra out of me when I was fooling with the staff's photocopy machine (she thought I wanna use it) and she went on with a sharp tone. Joel was there also and we were burst into laughter. Then after that, Joel, Ken, Boon and I were doing some food cocktail where we mixed chili sauce, honey, sugar, tea, coffee, milk and watermelon juice. Damn it smell so bad, just like Joel's fart(he having some fart marathon today)

Now I'm in the library blogging this I don't really wanna disturb Joel & co. studying...haha.

Thanks Ash & Ems...

Thank you thank you...you're far too kind...

keke, I'm listening to it now while blogging this to thank my friends who took my emoness out of me by taking me out the sick college who people think I got some thing for it...like so called having a "father"
STOP THAT FUCKING STATEMENT KAYZ HCTIB!!!

Well, as for Ashley and Emily...they brought me to Metro college to "sell" tickets for Mooncake Festival. I really enjoyed the fresh air there but the food sucks to the MAX..haha didn't turn out to do that but land up washing eye only. haha...kena scold from Emily coz of doing it.

Later...we head of to Asia Cafe to eat....(Emily la...like pig ni...haha...leaving up to her nickname). My damn can of Coke cost me RM 1.80...damn the expensive!
Then I met my old buddy Samuel, damn handsome already...saw Chatichai, Thinisya and Diana Lim(My so called first love in primary school...haha)...

It was nice to get away from the circle I'm in now and go back to what I enjoyed back in high school. Starting to miss you guys now!!!

~Shu Fei(sister),
Garrett(brother),
Mun Hong(ketua Ponteng),
Win Tsen(Stupidly Smart Philosopher),
Amir Tan(laughing box),
Samuel(joker),
Jayso(Dumb Funny),
Rakesh(sarcasmic),
Joanna Liow(my part time chatting friend),
Li Sher(just lily),
Preetvinder(my assistant in class),
Deeviana(CNN reporter),
Suet Yen(crabby Lobster),
Yee Won(bluffer!),
May Ling(wanting...),
Cassandra Foo(all guys want gal),
Claryn Kung(beruk amfibia),
Nicholas Ting(best tuition buddy),
Wei Cheng(super mong cha cha[blur]),
Hannah(sepak kaki sparing partner*wait a minute...the other kaki partner I have now was also a Sri KL student*)~

You all cross my mind...miss you people though I've met some recently!!!!!!!

Though I still feel halfly heavy now but the memories with you guys lifts it up!!!

Rather Blogging Than Writing More In Exams

I'm finally FREE!!!! from exams at least but not from personal problems and workload...aihz...really must try to learn to see the on the bright side.

Well, since I was in love once till now...I've been writing about life or love for the free composition and I just did it AGAIN just now.

The title was "what is love?"
I started it of with a song lyric and ended it with a short poem.
wahaha...but I didn't concentrate on my paper just now because I was distracted by a line. ishhhh....that's what that got me here blogging again.

Well, wish me all the best this week....cause it'll hell...btw..thanks Ms M Cubic for your message.

Literally...It's A New Day Today.

Well, I was blogging my emo life out few hours ago but I'm feeling much better now(after crying myself to sleep). Thanks to a friend who was so called a listener. Man she talks alot actually (no offense la k). But after a long conversation, I remember lots of things I'm doing wrong, priorities....and God especially. Thanks for reminding me of what I've been blurred of.



It's 1 a.m. now and Champions League is an hour plus away and exams is like 7 hours away. But hell with it...I'm letting go of what's kept within me for awhile.

I called and it was the wrong time.
*sorry*

I message but you didn't reply.
*it's ok but I needed someone to talk to and you're one of the only college friend I know I can talk to though I might be mock by you...haha*

I called and you listened to me...what my old high school buddy Cassandra said is true...friends are sweet but new friends are sweeter.

Well, meeting a new friend is such a fun thing to do though...especially online because it's hard to trust people these day. But among the friends that I've picked out online, they're all nice people that I can talk to and trust, like my first pet sister May Ling. I've known her in September 2004 and now we're like brothers and sisters.

Thanks again...hope to see you soon.

It's Getting Better...Hope it Stays That Way

I got home, bathed and spend some time in my room letting out my emotions...now I'm feeling better though there are still thoughts in my head.

Now, I'm just surfing the net for songs and I uploaded my new vain photos.
I'm still not feeling right...but thanks to my pet sis and and Ms. M cubic, I feel a little better than just now.

I almost breakdown in the car next to my un-open minded mom...thanks May Ling...you saved me today.



I've got nohting much to say...
-je vous veux

Emotional snowball...

It's was business math exams just now and I know I'll flunk it as I didn't do much.
But that's not what is making feel weirdly sad and emo.
I was also in dilemma about my subject registration....Stupid SEGi, want money only....

I'll have a bad week this week as my holidays are all eaten up and the person who's making me wake up everyday isn't around me.

After exams, take care of the mooncake festival booth for 5hours...both Tuesday and Wednesday.
Thursday, I'll have college magazine presentation along with my editor.
Friday....Leo rehearsal and Mooncake Festival night itself.
Saturday...Leo installation.

Where is my own life?
where I can spend it with you?
Really feel so broken now, but I'm in the IT Lab...still in college...I KNOW...NO FUCKING LIFE RIGHT?!?!
some of the people I know says that and some are least bothered to...(forget it)
I really wanna cry...say I'm a sissy but I'm a person in touch with emotions....that's why always emo!

Life is so screwed if you choose the wrong path...
well, I think I did...and it's costing me hell!


*I need you...you may not know about it but I really do...[tears are almost flowing out{most emo post ever so far in my blog}]. I...I...I...I'm lost now...nothing matters more than what I feel now,not the Champions League tomorrow morning,not the joy of the last day of exams,not the holidays that are given...it's all on you...freak out you'll be I know...maybe I shall stop being who I really am for awhile. I'm working so hard for it for the first time...and time is what I'm opposing now. me donner un signe*


Friends are so distant when I need them as I've neglected them at the wrong time like how I did last time. College or old buddies...aih....at least I have a new brother that I can speak my mind to.Thanks J...haha..we kinda share the same initial huh...


Feeling so distant...
petrified...
numb...
lost...
broken...
wasted...

~*sentir que le besoin aime*~

I Have Bad Day, Take it One Down...Sing A Sad Song Just To Turn iT Around.

Hey..it's marketing exam today...It was mentally difficult as the question was set as a single 20 marks question. I manage to finish the paper despite spending almost half drifting in thoughts...but without those thoughts, I don't think I can finish the paper today...I almost gave up. You gave me hope and strength to carry on... Despite conquering the whole paper with a sweet and sour success, my day still wasn't at the top of the world. I felt something is missing within me.

Even bowling and chess with friends made me look worst...played so badly coz I couldn't concentrate well. Till now I'm still rotting in college feeling partially emo right now.

Suddenly this line crossed my mind.."Broken hearts do mend"
Maybe it's because I'm feeling broken now...
It's 3p.m. and I'm stuck in the com lab blogging *so not the place I wanna be now*
******************************************
You took my heart away,
when my whole world was grey,
you gave me everything...and a little bit more
and when it's cold at night,
and you sleep by my side,
you become the meaning of my life
******************************************

Damn Izzat just had to play it...now it's playing in my head over and over again.
I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE THAT MY HOLIDAYS ARE ALL TAKEN UP BY ACTIVITIES!!!
FUCK....

Now I'm feeling double the emo and I don't know why I don't stop like blogging now.
Is it wrong to be involve?
Is it wrong not to change?

This feeling in me right now has been harassing me for quite a while and the last time it happen was like last year?...
Do I need it?
It's making me sick sometimes and I can't take it keeping it in me.
Is it worth it? "oh...definitely...IT IS"

Maybe I really need a good night rest..or better a chat with some who can piece the "at the moment broken heart" of mine.

******************************************
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
******************************************

FEATURE ENTRY: *Joel Stephen*

Man....time really do pass very fast.... The last time I wrote a feature entry was for Kayal early August but now it's almost end of September and I almost forgot bout the Feature Entry...haha

K K..Listen up people coz my brother from another mother is a Malaysian Cheap-Lak of lima puluh sen....(50 cent)...haha

Damn, I also can't remember how I got close to this guy...Hmmm, through Ryan the Chipmunk I guess. This Man Utd and Ferrari fan...keke...Man Utd LOST WEI!!!! huhu....
well, we're totally opposite in sports...I'm an Arsenal and McLaren fan. We shit talk to each other alot. We have mouth diarrhea every morning.

Funny dude, drives damn cun...on virtual cars only....real life dunno la. Strong guy also...Fully evolved human.



Best thing is...I spend 2hours of my life helping him to build his new blog and he's the one who inspired me on changing my blog title to "Soft Nougat & SweeT Creamy Caramel" based on someone...keke...thanks bro!

That's just a little bit about my brother here. -Peace-

Unrealiable!!!

Can't believe you wei....aihz....
yes la I SHOULD remind you....but you....just went home like that....
ish! say I'm sellfish la...tsk...whatever la


want things done...we really GOT TO DO IT OURSELVES!!!

Lines That Part the Ocean

I can't sing a love song like the way it's meant to be
- Bon Jovi (Always)

What hurts the most,
Was being so close
- Rascall Flatts (What Hurts The Most)

I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around
- Baby Face (Nobody Knows It But Me)

Cause there's a little bit of something me in everything in you
- Matchbox 20 (If You're Gone)

I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby...
- K-Ci & Jojo (Crazy)

Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu...
- Zainal Abidin (Puteri)

Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
- Manbai (Kau Ilhamku)

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
- Keith Urban (Making Memories Of Us)

Promise me tomorrow starts with you
- James Blunt (High)

If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
- Daniel Bedingfield (I Don't Want To Run Away)

Thats the way you make me feel...
- Ronan Keating (The Way You Make Me Feel)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
- Patti Symth (Sometimes Love Ain't Enough)

I dont know much,
But I know I love you
-Aaron Neville (Don't Know Much)

I'll be captivated...I'll hang from your lips
- Edwin Mccain (I'll Be)

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies...
- Maroon 5 (She'll Be Loved)

With you baby, it never rains
- Babyface (Everytime I Close My Eyes)

Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes...
- Teddy Geiger (For You I Will)

All I've got to give to you,
Are these five words when I,
Thank you for loving me
- Bon Jovi (Thank You For Loving Me)

Everything she does is beautiful,
Everything she does is right
- Lifehouse (You And Me)

I need you like I've never needed anyone before
- Firehouse (I Live My Life For You)

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
- Mariah Carey (One Sweet Day)

Your love is like religion...
- Keith Urban (Raining On Sunday)

Lovings such a beautiful thing
- Bee Gees (Too Much Heaven)

Baby, if I told you the right words,
Oooh, at the right time,
You'll be mine
- Boyzone (Baby Can I Hold You Tonight)

That I love you,
I have loved you all along,
And I miss you,
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
- Nickleback (Far Away)

We shared a moment that will last 'till the
end...
- James Blunt (You're Beautiful)

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
- Lifehouse (Blind)


We've had our doubts but now we're fine
- James Blunt (Goodbye My Lover)

Sing it With Me...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house,
That don’t bother me,
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out,
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while,
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me,
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok,
But that’s not what gets me,

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

You, Me and Dupree

It's the best!!! Love watching it.... =)

This is Finally it!!!

Heart pumps faster
Mind drifts far
All you think is that one thing...

What could it be?

The last time I felt that was like a year ago but that was ancient hsitory. Today, I felt it again...this time it's stronger. You are the one who finally fills that spot to complete me. You're different from the others, you're special and "honestly"...you're difficult in a special way.

I learn alot since I know you,
I believe I've change from who I was,
I don't really repeat the silly mistakes again,(keke)
I've grown with you by my side.

Don't wake me up when September ends...
I know I've said it's the most suckiest month in my life but now (as I least expect) it's been great to me. I hope everyday of September is a day spent properly.

Michael Bolton once sang:
How can we be lovers if we can't be friends

Back then it was all fights but not that much anymore. Maybe I'm just overfeeling it but I think this is worth it. May not be selected but really hope not rejected...

I don't want this semester to end...it's too fast.

*emo and can't study....wanna cry!!!*

Memorial....September 11

It was about 11 p.m. at night when my friend rang me up. I was on the bed already but wasn't asleep. So I rushed down to pick up the phone, he told me there's some aeroplane hitting a buliding in the US.

I switched on the television and watched it with my dad as he was reading newspaper. It was TV 2 if I could really remember but it was showing a CNN feat. I only got to saw the second plane hitting the World Trade Center. Moments later the building started to collapse (both the buildings)

But two days before that, it was my grandmother's funeral. I'd witness many lost that week...September hasn't been the best month in my life as I said earlier. May God be with those who perished on that day. Condemn the act of terror of these terrorist.



SEPTEMBER 11 - video powered by Metacafe

Dine But no Wine...worst...without you tonight

Damn I'm so full now, ate so much today...my dad's paprik chicken is NICE!!! I'm so gonna learn how to cook it. BUt earlier in the day I went to the famous House of Fishball at SS15 to eat kuey teow soup where the fishball is super nicely done. Later,I was in Summit to send my sister to her piano class along with my family. Wow, it was happening because the Ragnarok Online fest was there. But I decide something better...SECRET RECIPE!!! haha... Got a chocolate indulgence...damn it was so filling.


(I know you want it!!! haha...)



(what la my dad tak tahu to hold the camera properly...)


Though I wasn't into online games, but its not wrong to take photos with the models around...haha. After all those, I head home for dinner at Tu Fonda. I really wanted to know what they offer as I've heard that is one of the KK's chick's dad's shop..haha (I don't know how it relates)


(YUM! 7/10)


I craved the creamy pasta family thingy...It was not bad but Pizza Hut's one is still the killer. I gotta go bath now...there's F1 on the tube now and I wanna watch Lake House later..finally I got the clear DVD...

*miss you already*
*end*

Emofied!!! Day Three

When i thought i'll have noone...
I found you,
red shows your elegance,
yellow shows you're striking...
Put 'em together,never let 'em shatter...
Coz its the unique you i'm seeing

it's not love,
it's not a crush,
but thinking of you gives me a rush...

I'll turn to you when I'm blue,
for you are the only one so true

no matter how far apart,
I hope my feelings for you is thicker than blood.








*standing far away from you*

Emofied...Day Two

I started my day on a normal mood when I went back to my high school to have a chat with my old teachers. It's was fun to see my old school again though...haha. Damn the computer lab keyboard sucks!!!Damn hard to blog here with the retarded spacebar.

College life has become more sucky by the day as I just finish an extended 3 an half hour class. But earlier before that, I just had to have some ASS to spoil my day. It was badly dented by noon after the dull meeting for Clubs & Societies.

There were also rumors about me...Damn, my life in college is not peaceful at all.

Maybe I'm just thinking so much that I decide to blog my heart out right after class. Well done friends!!! Keep it up though....you're doing a great job. Oya...I haven't eaten my lunch!!! Maybe that's why I'm emo (NOT!!!)

Soon I'll be home facing my parents...cause I fought with my mom yesterday. It has not subside... But my ulcer finally is....that's the only bright side of the day though.

Another 6 hours to sleep....wonder what can happen within that period of time.

Emofied and Dilemmarific

Hate it when people don't mean what the say. It plucks the Fucking nerve out of my skin!!! I don't care if you're someone I like or love or have a crush on or someone important or someone I need to respect. Bloody Bastards...go to hell good for nothing talking shit crap talkers!

Why must I suffer from all these negative crap when my exams are coming. Put aside my emo feelings but being in a dilemma sucks like crap also. I really feel like giving up on college sometimes because of all these crap I have to go through. I'm so really stuck in the middle of everything I want in life. Some things gets worst and some gets so good to believe that I feel so blank.

Day started fine and went a little upwards during bowling but went down all the way till evening. Till now, I still so shitty...I argued with my mom till I got so angry till a picture of my F'in ex with her bf cross my mind. I nearly went BERSERK...




I hope with tonight's sleep everything dies off. I'm seriously like a spinning compass now.

31st August to 3rd Sept. New Horoscope: PetSisters

Since 2004, that time of the year is the time where I spend the most time with my pet sisters. For 2004 itself, I got to know a new pet sister(on 1st September 12 a.m. onwards...keke) till it created a misunderstanding with my girlfriend that time. To her, having a pet sister is when you can't woo the gal...so the guy will just settle as a "brother". But at that time when I knew May Ling, she was a gal who was down and needed support from someone...there was when we got to know each other. To know more about this, do go to my love story blog to read more about it.

This 2006, I spent my Merdeka eating Korean food with one of my closest pet sister (3 posts below this post...do read it). It was a time we reunited to celebrate her birthday and catch up with life.


(my right eye cacat already la...smaller one side wan)

On the 3rd September, finally I got to meet my pet sister who turns to me when she has problems(not easy to calm her wei...haha).


(at Haagen Daaz Mid Valley...)

But sadly she arrived late, allowing us to talk for like about...say...20 minutes only? really hope to go out with her again =P
She's only 14 this year and she's as tall as me (damn I'm short). Due to her "punctuality", I did a little shopping because it's the last day of Mega Sale. I was short of cash and only got one T-shirt
(there was another nice wan k...so sad...*sobbing*).


I also met my old friend Yee Won. She came all the way from home to Mid Valley just to print photos...When she came up to meet me, she said that she wants to leave for home already. I did follow her out to the bus stand along with her friends(her friends questioned me ALOT...scary...=/) to catch up with stories. Haha...that's about my 1st three days of September...gotta sleep now. Got a study group tomorrow... ='(

All together now...Collections

Februari
pernah kuselami perasaan ini,
pernah kugenggam ia milikku,
tetapi...ia telah berlalu,
kini ku hanya segan silu

pernah kuselami perasaan ini...
dengan gadis kuminati,
siang malam tak terhenti,
terpukau wajah ayunya di mindaku ini

walau dua dunia,
hatiku ingin jadi miliknya...
Biar gerimis cintanya padaku,
kumasih ingin bersarang di hatinya

ku tulus,
ku ikhlas,
di sisimu kurasa bebas,
tanpamu hatiku cemas

pernah kuselami perasaan ini,
kuharap ia kembali,
waktu bulan purnama Februari

Kasih
tak kau sedar?
tak kau fikir?
Bertapa pentingnya kau di lubuk hatiku...

Cintaku manis,
cintaku sejati,
tak pernah kami kelahi...
Hanya ingin bersama hingga akhirat menanti

takkan kulupa senyumanmu,
takkan kulupa bisikanmu...
Waktu bersama kuingat selalu

tak kumampu kehilanganmu,
kerana kini dua menjadi satu

buang kekeliruan,
hentikan syak wasangka,
biar hati suci...
dan cinta sejati

hanya dinda kumilikki di Bima Sakti ini

Abstract
Shan't I say lonely I'm not
Because as the sun don't shine,
even my shadow is not my company.

I've orbit & been orbited.
I've seen what I wanna see,
but I couldn't feel what I wanna feel.

Those were the days,
where happiness is everything while others are abstract.
& perfection was the word for us.

Confusion mislead me,
my thoughts ground me...
from reality that I'm still yet to conquer.
My tears flow in me but my outlook reflects the happiness of life...
like a mirror I am to everybody.

Messiah of my heart I shall address you...
for you are so caring & loving...
Making me feel essential you never fail to.
An eagle you are in the sky, conquerin the clouds that fill the sky.

Alexander The Great, Hitler, Julius Caesar...
legends they were & will always be in the mind of everyone.
But you my love conquered my heart,
something legends don't achieve.

And I always want to be conquered by you because you're my Messiah!

Friday
she's one in a million,
though we didn't meet at the station,
it has been a relationship build with passion

when I’m awake i ponder,
when I’m in slumber i wonder,
am i fond of her?
Its a thought with no answer

she's the one i seek when i feel bleak,
it's her words to me that cheers,
saving my precious nickel & dime over beers

Sister,
that’s all i called her...
How i wish if i could take a step closer...

Hilang
Langit bagai kehidupan,
panas,mendung dan hujan
semua telahku harungi,
yang cinta paling memahitkan...

Dulu dia bidadariku,kawan karibku,cinta pertamaku,
kini...ku bagaikan hantu kepadanya

Tiada lagi mentari dalam hidupku,
hanya hujan mendung mengaburiku,
hidupku bukan hidup lagi,
nyawa nyawa ikan pun tiada tanding...
dengan apaku alami...

Rindu semakin rindu,
dan hati terluka ini tiada ubatnya,
sejambak yang ada tetapi hanya sekuntum kuingini

Kenapa mu pergi...
tinggalkan ku berseorangan,
bagaikan bulan yang ditenggelami kegelapan

Oh dinda yang kukasihi,yang kucintai
pulanglah oh pulanglah...
ke sisi kanda yang sunyi sepi ini

Jelitawati
Ke mana kupandang,
di situ dia berada,
seorang jelitawati...
yang selalu kuimpi

Jauh di mata,
dekat di hati...
Adakah ini cinta?
Apakah itu cinta?

Matanya bersinar,
senyumnya manis,
ingin kudampingi,
seorang jelitawati

kurela bermandi hujan,
kurela meredah kepanasan...
untuk melihat wajahmu yang ayu

jika kukhayal waktu siang,
akan kumimpi waktu malam,
tak henti mencari kata kata cumbu...
untuk memikat hatimu...

seorang jelitawati...
tak ke mana akan kupergi,
sehingga hatimu kumiliki

Lost
In an oasis so green,
the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen,
where water flow,
& plants dance,
but how does one's love beauty compared to this?

She kept my heart beating,
she kept my blood warm,
but why did she had to leave,
this soul in deep pain & bitter grief

Though i lay on the oasis,
i still felt my life in crisis,
while i feast my eyes on d beauty...
I realize,
no grass so green,
no sky so blue,
than my love who was once so true

lost in desert's middle,
like on a boat with no paddle...
How i wish if i could fly,
so that i could conquer the sky...
And if i were to fall,
i wish to fall in love...

Satu
Dengan apa kuisi hatiku?
apa lagi jika bukan mu...

Sepintas,sejenak di mindaku...
terimbas kembali waktu cinta berputik,
dengan gadis ayu dan cantik

pernah kumohon cinta di perigi,
tak kusangka bermula pada pukul satu pagi...

Hampir setahun cinta menjadi,
tapi apa yang datang telahpun pergi,
meninggalkan kuseorang diri

hati hancur & hampa,
tak pernah bertegur sapa,
hati lembut menjadi batu,
kerana hanya menanti satu

Season
Summer is life,
everything was nice,
the brightest star shone,
on a flower i wanna love forever

Fall came not to long after,
from a lover i became a drifter,
as every leaf drop
and every petal dried...
to the flower I’d lost i always cried

Was i a love sinner?
Till i have to be solo all winter,
stranded alone in the blistering cold,
to find warmth was my only goal

every ice soon melted,
so did my heart...
I thought spring would be beautiful,
but i was only waited to be fooled

What i saw was dull,
but as i walk on the pavement ground,
i saw a flower with colours like no other...

Brought back colours to the rainbows,
ending my sickening sorrows,
finally promised a better tomorrow

for the one i believe,
turns out to be a thief,
i wonder what........
Omy, where’s my heart?

Believe
Looks fail desire,
shed mine & I’m transparent,
man with a heart,
a heart that burns passion

i once believe in perfection,
my mind knew it,
my heart felt it,
my soul lived it

how am i to trust it again?
Though i believe in it...
It will never be the same,
than the one that first came

with your gentle hands...
Guide me through darkness,
with your sweet voice...
Pamper my broken soul,
with your endless love...
Warm me through blistering cold

with you I’ll live,
without you I’ll grief,
every night i wish u won't leave,
cause i love you with every bit of me

Skylight
Ponder & wonder,
Although in deep slumber,
The silence of the heart,
Deafening one’s ear…

A day in a year I cherished,
But it is now perished,
She was the blossom that bloom,
And I wish I am her groom

A story without a climax,
Shock one’s heart,
Here I am wishing for a Ferrari,
But not even it’s shadows to be seen

Thinking back I always do,
For the one who was…
And my only boo.

Slumber Zzzz…
It takes me back,
Memories and thoughts appear,
Wish I could relive my past,
Where the beautiful spring never ends,
But the unwanted is catching up,
Calling and messaging me wassup.

All sorrow and dilemma was gone,
When I embrace the sunset at Yellowville lake,
The sunset tells me how beautiful life is,
And the tranquil waters calms me…

Hoping for someone,
Who can wash away all my sorrows,
And bring me to a brighter tomorrow,
Someone who makes me love again,
Never more to dilemmas and pain…

This is true from my heart,
For the ONE I’ve been waiting…
Though we’re not deep with each other,
I’ll take the extra step to know you better.

SorrY…
Blinded by love once,
Never was it fun,
All neglected except one…

How sorry can it be?
When all is broken…
Trying to salvage with no courage

“Nothing is forever”
said someone who knew better…

My many sorry can make a story,
Please forgive this friend,
If you can

Everlasting
It’s been fortnights,
Days I live through,
as blind as a bat wonders,
Nights I’ve been through…
As lonely as the moon I can say when it shines without stars

Wondering aimlessly without my compass…
Being lost I’ve been & helpless I am

Don’t have to be stranded on the island to be lonely,
But a missing piece of my heart tears me down

True to you I’ll always be,
Waiting I will though forever it takes,
Whatever it takes trembles me not,
For your undying love I’m dying for…

No man will ever love you the way I do,
Because a step they take is a step I’ve taken

A platform you’re not to my love legacy,
But a golden pathway to eternal happiness you are to me…
You’ve always been my queen,
Stepped down you did but your throne remains,
My heart is your country…
Since you left,
Everything’s a mess

Words are speechless,
Picture speaks a thousand words,
All I want is the best of you…
Because you complete me.


Feeling
if i didn't let you know...
how'd far you'll go,
till destiny part us...
while fate fails to match us

a gap defies,
a distance seperates...
a forbidden love that lies ahead


i maybe younger,
but my feelings are deeper...
just too bad we don't really know each other

i'll take a step to see you smile,
i'll write you a poem to make you happy,
i'll wait for your love to shine upon me...

Give me your hand & i'll won't let go,
i'll stand by you & see you glow...
for all i know,you're the i'm dying to know more

Jiwa
rambut sama hitam,
hati lain lain,
itulah kebenaran cinta dalam hidup

hati rasa cemburu,
sampai perlu mengasah kuku,
untuk suatu dendam,
yang kian lama terpendam

biarpun dia racun padaku,
tapi apa kuingin ingat ialah dia penawar hatiku

hampir setahun berlalu,
namun hatiku ini masih layu,
Hidup tak berani,
Bila kubawa diri kemana pergi...

tak inginku terus begini,
kerana masa depan cerah menanti.

Padamu
Kekeliruan meributkan hati,
benarkah cinta penawar sakti?
Bolehkah hidup baik kembali...

Ampun seribu ampun,
tapi masih tidak kagum...
Keikhlasan sesuci mawar,
jangan ditolak mahupun diketawa

soal cinta bukan untuk dipersenda,
dengan manis kata kata...

dengan mataku kupandang padamu,
dengan hatiku kurindu padamu,
dengan kata kataku kulafazkan cinta...
padamu...yang hanya kusayangi

Distance
You've been gone more than a month,
my life wasnt much fun...
I miss you lots,
I miss you tons

Here i am waiting,
for you to say something...
to make me smile,
not to make me wild,
your heart might not be in mine,
but i'll turn up just fine

when it matters most,
i will travel the coast,
To you...i'll find,
hope our hearts bind

Essential
With you i've spend time,
worth more than a million dime,
will it come again...
will it be the same?

I wish,i could,i hope...
To tell u something, but your heart can't cope

soon you're off again,
to a place knowledge you gain,
friends there keep you sane,
but friends here define you

one told me,
there are many fishes in the sea,
for now...
let fish be fish,
a step too quick can be foolish

when you pass the gate,please don't cry...
Cause this ain't the last goodbye

CRUSH
Is this love?
Or just a crush...
Thinking of you gives me a rush,
but when i face you i blush

i just wanna say i miss you very much...
From the bottom of my heart!

Dull...Wake Me Up When September Ends.

What a dull day to day... I was suppose to meet someone today...didn't get to...thanks to my "beloved" mom...damn it. aihz....

To make it worst..my Fucking ulcer is still killing me like a plague. Didn't even get to go anywhere and Mega Sale is about to end like say...TOMORROW!!!!

Now my ulcer is hurting!!!....aihz
shitty crap man...

I hope tomorrow I get to go somewhere la....Hate September!!! Things happened in this months for the past years. haihz.... FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! that's how emo I am...

Eat pizza for dinner just now also can't enjoy...babi betul la!!!

(Me...so bored till I took a photo with a paper....sadness)

Merdeka with Timberland and Korean food

I spent the whole morning with my family shopping at Subang Parade and I got Timberland stuffs. We even enjoyed Baskin Robbin though it was just a small pint. It was a headache finding a present for my pet sister as she turn 18 the same day as Merdeka. Despite all those joy, I'm still suffering with my ulcer on my lips till today (it's been 3 days already!!!so painful!!!)

So..happily with a new shirt and shoe, I head for home for a short rest before going out again in the evening. I arrived at the Korean restaurant early though, so I hang out with Garrett outside till it was like about 7.40 and we decided to go in the restaurant...Damn it was packed like crap when we reached up there...So many people standing around waiting for place to sit.

Then we found our friends and sat on like those Japanese style...haha...
The sad part is that my table only ordered our food at 9 p.m. and have to wait due to the crowd.
My noodles that I ordered was seafood(which I ain't that fond of it) but still ate it. I don't know what's the 70% that I'm feeding myself that time.



(My bowl is at the top left corner of the picture)

Then after the meal, we started drinking wine and cut the birthday cake. Can't believe Shu Fei so crazy over the name on the cake...O ya...damn it...I forgot to flick her ear!!!...damn!!!!

We even took pictures together to compare with the good old days in high school and now. Other friends who were day include Mun Hong and Win Tsen...the usual smart weird freak...haha...we also took photos together =P







My table bill came to like about RM 208++(something like that...) But I only paid for my noodles which was Rm 16. keke...Korean food is fun to sit and eat...Might consider dragging my parents there one day